I think it’s funny that I somehow shutdown all the feelings related to pain today.
Got little bit accident today – single motorbike accident. Instead of heading to KopNus, I rode my bike off to hospital’s emergency room. Having my right toe pulled off not long after.. sigh
Nope, somehow I dont feel pain, except for that short moment when I got shot for anesthetic. It seems like my body put its own defensive system and it turned numb. No pain, nothing
If you saw me tonight, you would find me laughing at the fact that I had to get my toe pulled off again.
I wasnt pretending to be okay
I just.. felt nothing
No pain
No self-pity
Nothing
even when I had to tend the wound at home on my own.. I just did it
It’s funny, I think. To have yourself shutdown all the feelings
you’re in between feeling nothing and anything
well, I guess I could sleep now that the blood kind of stop oozing out from the wound – wait, that’s blood?
gonna need to buy new sandals tomorrow.. shit.. and bye bye beach
ah
anyway, hope Nyuen’s dad is getting better soon… Amen
catch ya later
cheers 🙂