Let’s talk about insecurities…
Years… Years ago, my insecurities were more about phyiscal condition…
The fact that I had darker complexion than most of my friends
The fact that I had was bigger than most of my friends
The fact that I was bad at sports – not to mention my teachers made me felt worse
The fact that my parents were just primary school teachers with such a low income and we had to live in that small house
Well… Now, those facts do not bother me that much
Darker complexion is just fine… What matters more is proper skin care routine
Weight is just numbers… Food is just food… I start allowing myself to eat whatever food I want as long as it is still within my calories limit or in moderate quantity… There is no bad food, it’s just overconsumed
I’m still sucks at sports – be it swimming or even running… But I enjoy it since I have no one score how far I can run or jump.. I simply enjoy doing yoga or zumba – sigh, I miss doing yoga.. really
I am content with my current job… I have quite flexible working hours and I can work from cafe once in a while
Now my insecurity is more about how I feel like I haven’t done much while others keep on doing something
It feels like I haven’t been that productive when it comes to writing research papers while my fellow lecturers have published many
It feels like I’m struggling with my classes… Making sure my students learn something – gosh, how I keep on wondering if my students really know what they are doing in my classes or simply blank… While other lecturers seem like they know what they are doing with their classes – what with the course plan and everything
It feels like people keep on moving forward, going somewhere… While I get lost here… Not knowing what I should do next
And here comes my insecurities
Catch ya later
Cheers 💕💕